i've been to many blogs and it's not easy to be discreet about
oneself. i have stalkers who just couldn't get enough. it's not
something to be proud of. some of my friends think it's pretty
fancy and cool. well, i don't. i simply want to be left alone. if they
want to know me, then they must communicate with me. now i've
got to start living back to my old treadmill of things.
oneself. i have stalkers who just couldn't get enough. it's not
something to be proud of. some of my friends think it's pretty
fancy and cool. well, i don't. i simply want to be left alone. if they
want to know me, then they must communicate with me. now i've
got to start living back to my old treadmill of things.
for such a long time i view men as perverts (sorry men readers
^^ ) and i felt disrespected when they do things like that. i had
this negative perception with men and their motives. pretty
much my high school background influenced it. i studied in an
exclusive school for girls. it was an RVM congregation and i was
used to saying prayers during the morning and noon. can you
imagine that?! yeah, i was the prayer leader ^^ and the soloist in
our school choir, aside from our community parish. so all i did was
academics, organizations ( choir, thespian club, student body,
CAT officer). thoug i was boyish and my bestfriend was a boy, i
couldn't link a man's positive traits as a friend to a suitor. so
whenever some guys show interest in me, when they started
researching about me in school and they make moves, i freaked
out!
^^ ) and i felt disrespected when they do things like that. i had
this negative perception with men and their motives. pretty
much my high school background influenced it. i studied in an
exclusive school for girls. it was an RVM congregation and i was
used to saying prayers during the morning and noon. can you
imagine that?! yeah, i was the prayer leader ^^ and the soloist in
our school choir, aside from our community parish. so all i did was
academics, organizations ( choir, thespian club, student body,
CAT officer). thoug i was boyish and my bestfriend was a boy, i
couldn't link a man's positive traits as a friend to a suitor. so
whenever some guys show interest in me, when they started
researching about me in school and they make moves, i freaked
out!
i always remember that whenever i freak out out of guys looking
for information about me on line. yes, they do exist! and i just get this bad feeling about men (in general) whenever
someone stalks me. i feel betrayed. i've experienced one time, my
yahoo account was hacked! and when i came to see my sis at my
mom's place, she was like "why are you here?" i blurted out "is
there something wrong with visiting you?!" and she was frantic
and she said "well come on, i am still talking to you over YM!" she
deliberately shut the door of the shower inside her room and i
was shaking when i approached her desktop computer. yes, i was
on line like hell, who is using my yahoo!!! so i had to delete my
poor old account. =(
for information about me on line. yes, they do exist! and i just get this bad feeling about men (in general) whenever
someone stalks me. i feel betrayed. i've experienced one time, my
yahoo account was hacked! and when i came to see my sis at my
mom's place, she was like "why are you here?" i blurted out "is
there something wrong with visiting you?!" and she was frantic
and she said "well come on, i am still talking to you over YM!" she
deliberately shut the door of the shower inside her room and i
was shaking when i approached her desktop computer. yes, i was
on line like hell, who is using my yahoo!!! so i had to delete my
poor old account. =(
luckily, i have friends who helped me get through it.
this is just an episode of my experiences with "stalkers" and its
effect on my outlook towards men in general.
i love writing and talking. ^^ and so i've found time to create a
new blog. i am hoping i'll be okay here.
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