Blogging from my iphone

I've abandoned this blog for quite some time and I can't promise to be posting here religiously nor be able to manage this with the limited time i have for myself as well as the minute-to-minute posting to FB as it is easier to do. I'm not even sure if I'm gonna keep this or not. Well, just hanging on to it for now... :)


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photoshoot @ FC

it's been months since i have gone to a shoot. not that i cut my hair but the last offer was kind of hard to ignore and the decision was big for me in the sense that it was financially tempting and i wasn't ready, with all honesty. so i gave it a time and paused for a while. now that i'm here i don't have to think about the decision of turning a relatively popular flip name but then again the camera found it's way back into my arms. LOL the shots taken were 2 themes within 2 hours; 21-23 photographers... i will be updating this from time to time since i cannot afford to upload all together at one time. i'm only human, i need sleep. =) but thanks to these guys who did a great job. ^^

BEHIND THE SCENES by jcee

this is my uhhhm second life???!!! ^^

this odd morning  i got off too quickly and just as i was walking the street i saw my bus number! it was almost empty! so i looked to my right -- some cars but kinda far, then i ran to the middle. damn! the trailer truck took a turn, occupying more than the left lane. i was inches away from its front. my world paused and the passers by froze and all i could say was a very soft "mommy!" my heart stopped for 2 seconds. then the truck signaled me to cross quickly like i was a child playing in the street! i ran to my bus and sitting there, still in shock, i didn't notice that i was still embracing my heavy notebook! so i guess.. not my time yet?! and please, i don't want to die ugly and crushed like that! i want to die pretty man! lol thank you, Lord!

photo EB time on 12 Apr 09

thanks to paul for the banner!
photo originally taken by ced v.
hopefully the weather will be just fine on sunday... =)

buhay IT

yeah, i know you'd notice that this is the first entry in this blog to be Tagalog-titled (if there's such a word!) in most places in a workplace i mostly find friends in the IT section-- yeah the isolated corners outside operations. hey not that i get more access than the others! lol i just find their job sensible and what a challenge as i must say involving into all the firewall changes and stuff.

and yes, i'm an IT consultant and i'm in the ITSM group. i handle change requests and it's a tough one. i've got to bug network managers, project managers, requesters and task implementers regarding their change requests. i get to work on SG's government tools, too. i like doing my job though it is tough, i am enjoying the process. this way i am not so pressured into the number performance, metrics and all the stressful commitments i used to have with clients!

however, when we start accepting client requests, our world will be evolving triple of this current pace! moreover, dealing with all these isn't that hard at all. =) i can say that i'm motiated now in this new environment. just like i said, i feel alive!!! =)

buzzing off coz i've got to be @ the data center tomorrow. ^^

empty

did u ever find a time when you feel damn empty? initially you think it's nonsense. No logical reason to feel sad then you get a sudden feel of rushing events in your head, reminding you how awful life is showing you that you lost track of them.

did you ever find a time when you feel the love you had so great, unbreakable, no one can stop was just your fantasy? that suddenly you realize that all the things you saw were the ones your eyes only chose to believe in!

then you carefully carry your foot and just before you take your step, you need to consider --
is this the right direction?


zzz

extrinsic???

we usually dream and think of going out and mostly we hear our kababayans talk about their experiences in different countries they've been to; and yeah most of the Filipino families have relatives all over the world. there are tons of reasons why pinoys keep leaving and still they come back! when i was a child, i saw my cousins, uncles, aunts, dad and my grandma leave the country and come back from time to time and i have though about doing the same but hesitant as to the consequences and the changes that await me. but then again i was too young to analyze things and so it remained a fancy thought of what was out there waiting for me. attempts! can you imagine how frail and unprepared i was during those instant thought of just getting away and just leave period! i had many opportunities that in the end i chose to stay in the Philippines. reasons?! well, i had quite enough reasons why i had to stay. i couldn't leave mama and i had some battle against my own peculiar thoughts going on and on for the past years. my career was also tremendously playing a significant role in my decision-making so i had professional factors to consider like my staff, my colleagues, my boss and my self-fulfillment with what i have achieved and how satisfied i am with those that i have gained; do i still lack maturity? and all those questions running through my head. recession... funny how this globally dominating plague did not stop me from leaving! and most of them think that i am foolish! yeah, i am! lol but what else can i do? i can't stop it from happening or wait forever before i finally decide! I AM A FOREIGNER. it was an odd thing for me to say that i am indeed a foreigner now when for years the "foreigner" i am used to refer to are those tall and white men who tour my country, marrying brown-skinned pinays. but now i am THE foreigner! lol my job applications are a series of unimaginable totally crazy experiences! i had 15 interviews! not kidding! having this economic chaos can't be harder than any other time in history. i found myself realizing how absurd it is to be in the middle of all this! do i have a choice?!!! lol companies choose the locals over the foreigners and it's a no-brainer! differences--this country is diverse in itself where so many races and languages that you bump into! and i'm one of the pieces in the puzzle. ^^ and yeah, i'm fortunate that the company i belong right now is also a mixture of races-- that i don't feel no prejudice. lol the pinoys at work are cool with me. i guess i'll be so at home here in no time. =)

babydoll

the doll named ANNE♥♥♥


you know you LOVE me...